january, again
1/28/26



it's january, again.

this month always comes around, bringing with it a new year, and some days it feels fresh and clean and like a new start. i'm going to do better this year. i'm going to eat right, i'm going to get healthy. i'm going to do all the things i've been meaning to do.

but the daily grind always comes back in, seeping at the edges of this new optimism. dark fingers of bills and worry and stress plucking away at it.

the internet is nostalgic for 2016, i guess. i don't think it's anything to do with the year 2016. i think it's just because "a decade ago" always feels better to your mind. in the rearview mirror, you've forgotten all the little things of ten years ago. and all you remember is that you didn't have the pressures on you that you do right now.

despite the dark tone of this, i'm not as depressed about it being january as it may seem. all in all, everything going on in the country today is making reality scarier than ever before. but there is also a glimmer of hope, too. and as for me personally, i think if i just accept that it's january, again, i can get over it faster.

and in three days, it's february, again.